On Standing Still
Twenty-two notes from the board.
A free PDF book by Rebeka. Twenty-two short observations from a decade of standing on a sadhu board, each paired with a sumi-e illustration. Plus three collected essays and the contraindications appendix.
- DRM-free PDF, roughly eighty pages, six megabytes
- Twenty-two koan spreads with original sumi-e illustrations
- Bijin-ga cover and section openers (shin-hanga register)
- Three essays from sadhuboard.store/writing, collected and edited for the book
- The contraindications appendix
- Available in English, Russian, and Ukrainian — pick from the email after purchase
- Lifetime access — download link emailed within minutes
Free, in exchange for your name and email. Download link emailed within minutes. Also bundled with every board purchase.
The first time, the board is winning. The second time, the board is winning. The third time, you notice that “winning” was never the right word.
The first few sessions feel adversarial. You step on; the board does its work; you step off shaken. It is natural to draft a story in which the two of you are opponents and one of you is going to give in. Three sessions later — usually around the third, sometimes the fifth — the frame breaks. What changes is not your tolerance. What changes is who you thought was on the other side.
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